Now that the busy-ness of the weekend is over I have time to write again…

I think that the middle of something is usually the hardest. Week 2 is thus the hardest of a 3 week fast. This is due to being all fired up and excited in week 1 and having the end in sight in week 3, but week 2 is really just ‘mid-ness’ (as my aunt would say).

I was suddenly flooded with baking orders for the end of the week and had 2 large orders for assorted cookies from two different companies, 2 birthday cakes and 40 cupcakes to be delivered on Friday and Saturday. I also had a birthday dinners on Friday and Saturday night so it was quite a busy weekend.

Knowing about these dinners before committing to the fast, my husband and I agreed that we would not be fasting on these evenings (including last night which was our anniversary dinner). My husband is all for not doing the fast at all on the weekends, but I’m happy to try to do it through the day and then just break it for the dinners.

However, spending the whole of Friday and Saturday with my kitchen and myself covered in cookies, cupcakes, cake, chocolates and icing my sugar cravings got the better of me and I did lick my fingers a few times before washing them rather than just washing all of that sugar down the drain. Thus, Saturday was pretty much a write off and so dawned Sunday.

Sunday was better until the sugar cravings hit on Sunday evening. If I don’t have something in my flat then I wont eat it. That is my best way method of defence against cravings. Unfortunately I had 8 cupcakes left from the day before and the person to whom I was going to give these had not answered my sms’s requesting details for delivery. I think that I was driving my husband nuts because eventually he told me that I had better eat some cupcakes…so I did. I don’t think that I’ve ever really known what a true craving was until Sunday and quite how dependent I seem to be on sugar. Quite an eye opener.

Yesterday the cravings weren’t as bad, but they were still there. It helped that I knew we would be going out for dinner for our anniversary and so I managed to get through the day without breaking, not even a teaspoon of peanut butter! I think that I am back on track again and this week will be better.

During the weekend I also lost track of seeking God first and I’m sure that is why I succumbed so easily. I was constantly aware of God and the fast, but I didn’t spend anytime in His Word or in quiet prayer with Him and I suffered for it.

It’s truly amazing how this is just a diet if you don’t make sure that your focus is on God and diets are just far too easy to justify breaking. Well, that’ll teach me.

This week I don’t yet have any major orders, but I will be having my first full day of Patisserie class and I know that we will be doing muffins, scones and drop scones and raspberry jam. I have already mentioned the fast to a couple of my classmates so there is some accountability there and I should be able to get through the day as long as I take some fruit and veg along on which to snack.

I’m ready for week 2 and I’m going to do my best to spend more time with the Lord and finding refuge in His presence.